random pic I've stumbled on tumblr and no. 12 just struck me right in the heart.

Rain is continuously falling for some days now. Yesterday I, along with some of my friends in high school, attended the wake of our classmates(Liezel) grandpa, he was 83 years old and have died of multiple organ dysfunction. He was known in our area as Mang Erning and hes one of those who you called "manghihilot". This Sunday he was placed in his last resting place at Himlayan. During the time when I was walking and escorting the "karo" Liezel was beside me and she was crying and I honestly don't know what to do, I just wanna cry too, because I know how painful it is to lose someone you love. But in the end I just placed my hand on her shoulder to show my support.

meh...

My blogspot is DEAD! Honestly I'm so lazy to write things here every now and then. I'm not busy (well,most of the times) It's just that my everyday is so boring and lifeless + my dull personality = worlds end.

I need a push from the back. An inspiration or just anything that will stimulate my flesh and sleeping neurons to make me do awesome things..

So for now I will try to motivate myself. Wish me luck.

The Moon

http://matabangutak.tumblr.com/post/20909687582

     When I was young I always thought that the moon was following me. I was proud of it, that the moon was following me, it gives off the feeling that I'm special somehow. The moon is magnificent, it gives of a secure feeling, it has an overwhelming presence,  but there were times that I would  try to hide from the moon, I would run while looking above trying to see if i can lose it if I turn in a corner, I would run faster hoping that I could outrun it, but everything was useless so I give up and just told my self that the moon is my guardian who will always be there to watch over me.

       Do not judge people based on their appearance.

Most of the people that appears calm are usually the ones that have vent up again deep within their self.

Don't get fooled when they say "its ok" when you do them wrong because  there is hate that they just can't express.

Pretty boy

So I found this sexy picture of a gorgeous looking guy drools on Tumblr and I was entirely captivated by his beauty. Unfortunately I don't know his name or have any information about him. But I'm still happy knowing that such a pretty boy like him exist in this world. but GEZZ !! I REALLY REALLY wanna know his name =D

Goodbye days

I've forgotten who I am. I don't have amnesia, I just happen to forgot who really I am. What are the things I can do? How far can I go? How much can I sacrifice? Back then I know, but now, I can't make up my mind.

I was then confident with the things I do. But the sudden changed in my environment caused me to forget who I really am. It was like I was so fired up at first to improve myself but then, the urge declined and I lost all my senses. The paved path I was following crumbled and I fall down

falling 

falling

falling 

I didn't know how long I was falling. There was no sense of time. I don't even remember what I was thinking when I was falling, or maybe I wasn't thinking of anything at all. All i know is that I'm falling. I tried to save my self and climb back up, but my efforts are fruitless, and I thought "Will everything end up when I reach the bottom??? or will it lead me to a different more cruel road???" Anything might happen, there are countless of possibilities. But there are consequences that should be paid. I've already lost a couple of my life and I'm still losing some. I've also hurt and anger the people I love. But I am the ONLY ONE to be blame because I wasn't strong enough...